Tattoo !!

So I just had my first tattoo. I just decided I wanted one, and so I had it done.

I can be quite impulsive about things like that. If I've set my mind on something, it will be done. I guess that's not a bad thing, but I suppose I can be quite stubborn.

I got a red heart on my lower back on the left hand side. I'm really pleased with it.

I came home and my boyfriend was just like "WHAT?" I think because he isn't as spontaneous as me! He's worried what I'm gonna come home with next time!

Anyway the tattoo bloody hurt! It just feels like a needle is scratching you (which is exactly what's happening lol!)
I love my new tattoo though and I'm glad I had it done :)


xoxo

CHRISTMAS

Hate me as much as you like , but I am SO excited about Christmas, I cant quite control myself !!

Ive just been talking to Him about it, my "other half" and I cant wait to spend xmas with Him and my Family !! I just love the dark mornings and the dark evenings and the snuggling up by the fire, the wrapping myself up warm in as many clothes as i like, the scarves, the hat , the gloves, the ear muffs !!! and the copious amounts of alcohol and food!!! its always such a great and reasonable excuse to put on weight ! and i , for once in my life dont give a shit how fat i am at christmas !!!
I love it when me and my sister go to sleep on xmas eve (me and my sis always sleep together on xmas eve! im 19 for f*** sake !!!) and mum would come in , in the middle of the night when we're "asleep" and put a few presents in two pillow cases for us each at the end of our bed. I'd wake up in the middle of the night feeling the slight weight of the presents on my feet, and with a massive smile on my face i woul drift into a happy sleep! I just dont think I realised how family orientated I am AND I LOVE XMAS !!!!


We had "rules" in our house at Christmas. Me and Becky (my sister) would wake up at stupid o'clock (5/6) and we'd carry our pillow cases into mum and dad's room. We weren't allowed to open our presents until we'd made them a cup of tea and it was atleast 8 o'clock !! It was soo unfair ! All we'd want to do was rush downstairs and open our presents! Mum, being Mum, would be so bloody organised ! We'd go downstairs have breakfast. And after some bucks fizz, mum would put all our presents in piles! Me and Bex had to take it in turns opening presents... Me, Becky, Me, Becky..... But, to see the smile on my Mum's face, I wouldn't have it any other way!


I'm a little older now. But I somehow think I'm going to be exactly the same. My boyfriend will sleep in the spare room but me and Becky had to be in the same bed. We didn't have many traditions in our family, but that was definitely one of them:)


I hope you're just as excited about xmas now as I am!!!!
i know its early, but hey !!!


xoxo

Eastenders

Okay. So I don't care what anyone else thinks, but Eastenders is in a complete league of its own!! I have never cried so much at an episode and nobody even died ! This shows just how much it is about the actors and the storyline! You don't need tragedy to make it feel tragic! Something about it I think people can relate to. Nothing compared to Coronation Street, Hollyoaks and don't even get me started on Emmerdale!! They can't even TRY to compete with the brilliance of Eastenders!! I know I sound like a bit of a psycho obsessive Eastenders fan but i just LOVE it !!! I think the thing that made me sad was the fact that when there were tearsn, the actors where genuinely sad that Babs is leaving!! I love that she didn't die though! She can still come back! Even if she doesn't want to!! I will drag her myself from Spain or wherever she went !! Haha !! Anyway , in gonna stop rabbiting on now !!


PS - can't wait for Kat and Alfie to return!!!!!!


PPS - I think Jesse Wallace has definitely had something done to her lips !!!!


xoxo

THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY !

yay its friday! everyone always gets excited when its friday! even me, and I don't have a job, so everyday is Friday to me! (Not trying to brag) nobbys nuts and wine are on their way! Yum yum. waiting for Him to come home, and we shall have a cosy night in:) snuggle snuggle snuggle.

xoxo

...

So I'm bored. Thought I'd write on here. Ive just done my nails and don't have anything else to do. I haven't got a job at the moment becase I'm just waiting til I start uni in a couple of weeks. . .
I've got a few things to sort out for that, but I can't really be bothered (God i'm so bloody lazy!!)
I want to read some plays, need to pick a few out and get my head stuck in. Anybody have any suggestions of plays they've read that they can recommend? I have a few in mind.

I've resorted to watching cartoons, hmm really? Don't think i'm ever going to grow up! Which I guess in some ways is a good thing.

xoxo

First ever entry!!

Okay, so this is my first ever experience of blogging ever !!! So I may be pretty crap at it ! I recently read a book about someone who blogs and I thought "Hey! I can do that!!" I often write a diary, so I'm kinda thinking it's a similar thing?!

Right... I guess firstly I should tell you a bit about me! (not too much though, I'm sure you don't want my life story!!)
I'm 19 years old and I'm currently living with my boyfriend (he's slightly older than me, but we don't need to get into that just yet!) We went to Australia a few weeks ago which was good. It wasn't overly hot as it was their Winter (and i do love a HOT holiday! what girl doesn't??) So the reason I went to Australia is that my biological Dad lives out there. My mum and him divorced when I was a baby and he moved to Australia to live and I hadn't seen him since, so it was kind of a big deal!
It was very weird meeting him at first. I knew it was bound to be awkward! I kept finding myself staring at him and thinking "we've got the same ears, and the same eyes "...

But after a few drinks, we became a bit more comfortable and starting to relax a bit. Like what do you say to your Dad who you haven't seen since you were 7months old ! He kept asking me to tell him stuff, I'm like, "what do you want to know??" I found it hard exlaining stuff to him about my childhood and upbringing that he'd missed out on. I guess I've never had to talk about things that aren't neccessarily important to me but were to him. Like what food I liked, and names of my friends etc!

I had spoken to my Father a few times prior to meeting, over the years. Mum never really liked me speaking to him on the phone because he'd always be drunk and he'd make me upset, espcially at a young age. Mum has always been really supportive about the whole thing.
I have two step dads anyway (another story I won't get into now. It's not a gay thing by the way!!) I have an amazing family around me and I love them all loads, so I didn't really feel that I'd missed him in my life, because I'd had a great life and a great family! I guess I just wanted to meet him out of curiosity (naturally) more than anything. All of his family live over in Australia with him and I have a step brother. I only met my Dad when I went out there, but maybe next time I will meet the rest of the family. I thought it would be a bit too overwhelming to meet them as well as Dad for the first time!

So. I'm now back from Australia, and I've got a few weeks before I start University.
I'm going to  Bath Spa University to study Performing Arts, which is what my passion is.
I love performing especially singing and acting. I'd love to do it as a profession but it's such a competitive business to get into (Theres No Business Like Show Business!) but I'm pretty determined, so I will reach my goal one day!

I guess that's all you need to know for the moment... I hope this hasn't been too horrible to read and I hope my spelling's been okay ?

I will write again soon, probaby tomorrow.

TTFN :)